Coming back around

Well I had kinda forgotten that I had a blog for idk.. the past 5 months. So i have decided that i shall re-kick off my writings. Yeah most of them were just pointless stuff or me venting randomly and what not. I don't really know where to begin again. It almost seems as if my life has just kinda been stuck in the same route for a long time. I know why, its because i haven't really been into God that much. And I will admit it now, even though i honestly hate saying it. My life just goes well when I'm in tune with him. When I am playing the chords, beating on the same drum, singing on the same key as him, my life just flows. I can't explain it any better than that. I'm not saying that everyday of my life is a fairytale type day, i mean i could cry every night but its still just good. I lost my love for music in the past couple months and was just listening to mediocre stuff. I was experiencing the color of life. WEll all that is gonna change now. I don't want this year to be wasted. My freshman year is almost over but 2010 just begun. If i live the next 6 or 7 months like i have been spending my last 4 then there is no point in my life. I have got to get a grip on what i'm going to do because this year needs to have some memories that take up a lot of space in my head. I hope that people will see a change in me soon because i'm tired of looking and feeling dull sad and dry. So if i had a drink sitting next to me i would make cheers to myself for a new beginning because that is what i'm looking for. Okay.. well thats it. Goooooodbye :)